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tonight.

Just some words and lyrics telling my thoughts and emotions on my mind for this day and week and weeks to come.
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Rascal Flatts and Natasha Bedingfield- Easy


The truth is 
That I miss lyin' in those arms of his 
But I don't ever let it show 
I laugh and I act like 
I'm having the time of my life 
as far as he knows 

It's easy goin' out on a Friday night
Easy, everytime I see him out
I can smile, live it up
Like a single girl does
But, what he, what he don't know
is how hard it is to make it look so
Easy 
___________________

You Could Be Happy- Snow Patrol

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you, go.
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world.


So that is that.
If I died today, I would want you to know that I felt this way. 
xo, Jell.

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