Grace and Curls- a twisted kinda beautiful new beginning.

So I will be honest, I am not an American Idol fan anymore, really.  I watched Justin and Kelly, I watched Dianna, I watched Ruben, and then I just got over seeing a lot of the same thing over and over again.  But tonight, I turned on an episode for the first time in years (that is so strange to say), and was awestruck and amazed at the moving story that Chris Medina told.  I was watching this show laughing at the insane individuals that "enter" that competition, and smiling with joy for the ones that have amazing voices and a chance at making it with the big dogs. All of a sudden at the end of the show, this young man walked into the audition room and stole America's hearts and I would guarantee had women, as well as men, from all over the country, tearing up with sadness and heartfelt warmth. Please hear his amazing voice while taking a look at this beautiful and moving story that this man is living with his precious Juliana. If you've watched it once, or five ...

I have a new found love for the Norah Jones Pandora radio station. I love the soothing songs it plays, but I also love the way I can relate to nearly every songs lyrics. This song in particular popped up tonight and I fell in love with it. Not only is it a beautiful song, it's words speak to me so clearly, and so honestly. I don't think I could have written anything more perfect to the way my recent emotions have been hitting me. Credit to touching my heart so sweetly and sadly tonight go to this wonderful singer and songwriter, Julie Moffitt. Please enjoy, and feel it just as I did.  Anyone in a relationship, or fresh out of one, or that has ever experienced hearbreak or heartache with another person, you should relate to this. Julie Moffitt- Stolen I’m tossing in my sleep trying to shut him up With fevered dreams Its only been a week a half hearted fantasy Wondering what he sees in me In our separate space we are idols from a higher place The beautiful ones that everyon...

Well, this weekend has been a difficult one emotionally; but it has certainly been for positive and very much so for the better.. A lot of things have happened over the past few days that have made me really rethink life and the way I'm looking at it so often. I'd like to share. We had some wonderful auditions this weekend at Ole Miss and things did not turn out exactly as I had planned for them to. Many of my incredibly talented friends had great success with this though and I could not be more happy or excited to find out the outcomes for them.  I was upset at first and in my mind wanted answers. But I rethought and wondered what do answers really do for you? What does knowing the reason why you didn't succeed at something make anything better? Why do we question why we didn't get the role we desired or ace that test that we worked so hard for? We don't know, and we want to know, so that we will feel better, about knowing!  It's all a mental thing I think. ...

This songs words touch me so greatly. One can only guess who it reminds me of. </3 Remember, no matter how easy you think it will be, or how ready you are for it, goodbyes are never easy; never . I just have to keep thinking it's not goodbye, only see ya' later.  But goodness; it is so much easier said than done. So that is that. If I die today, I would want you to know&hear this. xo, Jell.

Yesterday, I worked on monologues, read some plays, had time at the gym, and fasted. I fasted for a church wide pray and fast day and nearly died; literally. But kept my prayers going and ended up makin it through 24 successful hours without eating! I was very proud of myself :). Note to everyone: if you are fasting, do not go do an intense work out. Not a good idea. The entire Turner Center almost saw me pass out in the middle of the gym yesterday. Ha. It wasn't funny then, but it is now. :) I came home last night and was planning to have a quiet night in by myself and be a bit of a bum.  However, I decided to have a couple friends over for tea and talk :) Kelly and Christian came and chilled for a little while and then had to leave to go to Wal Mart. Though I was planning to stay in for the evening, they told me to come, so I did, got some groceries, and then they talked me into spending the night with them! We hung out, made nachos and brownie bites at 12:30 am when I was ab...

cat·a·lyst    [ kat -l-ist ]  –noun 1. Chemistry   .  a   substance   that   causes   or   accelerates   a chemical   reaction   without   itself   being   affected. 2. something   that   causes   activity   between   two   or   more   persons or   forces   without   itself   being   affected. 3. a   person   or   thing   that   precipitates   an   event   or   change:   His imprisonment   by   the   government   served   as   the   catalyst   that helped   transform   social   unrest   into   revolution. 4. a   person   whose   talk,   enthusiasm,   or   energy   causes   others   to be   more   friendly,   enthusiastic,   or   energetic. Heard this song last night...

It's Sunday morning and I am off to church, for the first time in over a month, with Jay Hart :) My mom told me to say this as a little prayer a long, long time ago. On mornings when I wake up feeling wonderful, or not so wonderful, I say this, and 99 times out of 100, I feel amazingly comforted and better. Take this and start saying it whenever you have the chance; when you first wake up, when you are enjoying a beautiful day outside in the sunshine, when you are stressed or upset, anytime. And really think about the words and their meaning when you say it. See what it does for you. The 23rd Psalm: T he Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: For thou art with me; Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. Thou preparest a tabl...

If you feel the urge to cry, cry . If you feel the urge to scream, scream . If you feel the urge to dance, dance . If you feel the urge to laugh, laugh . And if you feel the urge to love, think twice . <3 So that is that. If I die today, I would want you to know these things. xo, Jell.

I was inspired to start this blog due to two things.  One: some specific life circumstances that I want to begin to express through videos, pictures, music, and words.  And two: because of Miss Katie Ruth , that also began a blog, and made me want to express my feelings in the same way(other than Facebook) and to where my friends and family that care to know my in depth thoughts and feelings, can read them if they choose. I created this blog on a spoof of thoughts and energy that are roaming throughout my body right now at 3:16 am :) It is entitled " If I Die Today, I Think You Should Know: " for one reason; if I were to die today, I would want these thoughts to be publicly known to my loved ones. So I am going to start posting advice I find throughout life, possibly on a daily basis as if it is an online diary, thoughts on love and the future, and sometimes just plain random things I want to get out at that specific moment in time.  So I only want to list a few poi...