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Starting a Blog.

I was inspired to start this blog due to two things. 

One: some specific life circumstances that I want to begin to express through videos, pictures, music, and words. 

And two: because of Miss Katie Ruth, that also began a blog, and made me want to express my feelings in the same way(other than Facebook) and to where my friends and family that care to know my in depth thoughts and feelings, can read them if they choose.

I created this blog on a spoof of thoughts and energy that are roaming throughout my body right now at 3:16 am :) It is entitled "If I Die Today, I Think You Should Know:" for one reason; if I were to die today, I would want these thoughts to be publicly known to my loved ones. So I am going to start posting advice I find throughout life, possibly on a daily basis as if it is an online diary, thoughts on love and the future, and sometimes just plain random things I want to get out at that specific moment in time.

 So I only want to list a few points for the day so that I don't ramble on about nothing in this first post.

There will be more coming soon once I wrap my head around how I want to go about doing this exactly. But as for now, read and accept.

1. Sledding is quite possibly the number one winter activity that allows for extreme and non-stop laughter and smiling for longer than a half hour period. First experience with this- 01/10/11.

2. If you doubt something or disagree with something, stand up for your individual thoughts and say NO. Disagree with things that you are passionate about no matter who you are speaking to; be it divorce, homosexuality, feminism, sports teams, friends, or emotional feelings. When you stand up for what you believe in or what YOU want, you will get 1000 times more respect than if you leave your view unsaid and let someone trample your opinions with theirs.

3. No matter how much you may dislike your parents sometimes, you must remember that they love you. They may disagree with you on every single thing in your life, but it's only because they want to protect you from life or their experiences with it. Though there are rocky, rocky bumps in the road of relationships with parents, I love my Mom and Dad more than anything in the world. If I could choose out of all of the parents on this planet, I wouldn't trade them in for a billon dollars. Trust in your parents and in who they are as people, and accept them for them; don't doubt their love for you, ever. 

4. Just because you think your "best friends" don't care about you, or don't put in effort to show they care, doesn't mean they don't. It could mean they are going through a difficult time in life that you may be unaware of. It could mean they were having a bad/long day/month and didn't want to speak to anyone for a while. Or it could mean that they truly do not care about you. If that is the case, don't dwell. Accept it and go fourth with your life. I say this because this has been an issue in my life recently, and I am slowly seeing and thinking 'maybe this is happening because of something I'M doing, not always them." Just food for thought.

and finally 5. I have loved a man by the name of Jay David Hart for the past 3 years(officially 3 years as of January 28th) and I always will. Life is throwing us some curve balls currently with uncertainty, doubts, forks in the road, and break ups. However, this man will always be the one person that truly taught me the meaning of unconditional love that I hope I can pass on to another someday. No matter where life takes us or who says what about who, when, and where, he will forever own a large piece of my heart that I never will, and would never want, to get back. I will forever love and care about him with every fiber of my being.

So that is that.
If I die today, I would want you to know these things.
xo, Jell.

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