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Fresh Start.

Well, this weekend has been a difficult one emotionally; but it has certainly been for positive and very much so for the better.. A lot of things have happened over the past few days that have made me really rethink life and the way I'm looking at it so often.

I'd like to share.

We had some wonderful auditions this weekend at Ole Miss and things did not turn out exactly as I had planned for them to. Many of my incredibly talented friends had great success with this though and I could not be more happy or excited to find out the outcomes for them.
 I was upset at first and in my mind wanted answers. But I rethought and wondered what do answers really do for you? What does knowing the reason why you didn't succeed at something make anything better? Why do we question why we didn't get the role we desired or ace that test that we worked so hard for?
We don't know, and we want to know, so that we will feel better, about knowing! 

It's all a mental thing I think. I wanted answers terribly bad, but after coming to terms with things and talking to some wise individuals in my life, I concluded the truth on a specific nonchalant saying:

Everything happens for a reason. 
No matter how much we may not want to believe this, it is the truest statement of all. I firmly believe that God gives us certain situations in life to give us utter joy as well as teach us lessons for the future. Not having things go as I wanted them to for me this weekend, shows that this was just not the right thing that needed to happen in my life right now.
And that is okay :).

Another thing I have brought into my life over the past few days, that I have wanted for a long time now, is picking up another major!
I am officially going to be receiving a dual degree in Theatre Acting as well as Special Education!
It has been on my heart for so long to be able to have both of these areas of training in my life since I have had so much of both previously, and I'm finally making it a reality!
It will be stressful with only 18 and 19 hour semesters for the next 3.5 years, but I will do it! 
I will be at Ole Miss only one extra year and will be able to still graduate with my class in 2013 with my BFA degree, then in 2014 with my Special Ed! 
It will be very exciting to see how all of this starts changing my life :)

Lastly, I had a great realization tonight when I went out and talked with Justin Charles.
We discussed what we wanted out of this semester and came up with this:
We want to enjoy it. Simple as that.

So often in college, especially in theatre, we get caught up with everything going on in our own worlds; grades, movement template and monologue performances, family issues, being stressed and tired, and we truly forget how to be happy and enjoy life.

I noticed this happening to myself as well as many friends last semester and I am not going to allow it to happen to me again this year!

I want to volunteer at puppy shelters. 
I want to be able to do community service projects with local businesses.
I want to participate in multiple Bible studies and religious organizations.
I want to explore the great outdoors.
I want to take a vacation to visit family or friends.
I want to go on a retreat with spiritual friends that can rejoice in God's awesomeness with me!
I want to go to the square on a random night just because I feel like dancin'! 
I want to have fun and enjoy college!

I so often say to myself, "I should do this because I don't want to look back and think, 'I wish I had have taken on that too'."

But when you get down to the core of the matter, I also don't want to look back and think 'I did all of that, but was to stressed to enjoy any of it.'

So this semester, I am going to enjoy my time in college. I am going to be happy with everything that happens in my life, and I am going to love everything that happens in my life!

That is my plan, and you should think about doing it too, if you aren't already :)

I am so ready to start an amazing semester tomorrow and I can't wait to see what the future brings to my life.
Have a blessed and wonderful week friends! <3

So that is that.
If I die today, I would want you to know these things.
xo, Jell.

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